COCI coccus.

Wassup!

To think I would be able to have a normal, peaceful day today. I managed to get rid of almost all of my negative thoughts on the exam, seeing as I only need to "work on my skill" for Geo. Not that it's super duper hard. Esp when I don't know where to start. In case the sarcasm goes unnoticed, I don't really mean the hard comment. 

Anywaaaay, I was flicking through some boring channels when the phone suddenly rang. Thought it would be some extra classes or smth but nooooooo. It was a Malaysian woman asking for my dad. So I thought. It was my teacher, in some kind of accent. Anyway she told my dad about this Asean quiz going on and I'm going to be taking part in it. Okay I was like, what. Me? Suddenly taking part in an outside activity? Where the hay did that come from? Thought the sch is dead-set on preventing me from participating in any kind of ecas. Well I guess I was proven wrong. 

But then again, I don't think so. Because when my sister got home she told me about this English sir at our school who claimed to know me. He was like, "Hey I know your sister. I mentored her when she was a participant of this wordplay competition last two years with three others. We got eighth place." Well actually sir, we were at seventh. Not that it made much difference. And then he went saying that our school was banned from participating in that competition the year afterwards and so on. And I was like, really? Our school banned, or our school was banned? And does it have anything to do with the fact that our sch lost? Cos I think our school body has a like, determination to get rid off all things causing humiliations - including humans, maybe. Idk. I'm just being a smartass here. But whatever. Hope no one from our sch reads this. Hahah. Which I don't have to worry about anyway. 

So back to this Asean quiz. I'm not even sure if I want to participate! After knowing Suamp banned - or was banned - from entering this wordplay competition. What if I lose? I always lose quizzes. My only excuse: I only do it for fun so I don't take every one of them seriously. I cannot use that excuse again now can I? But ugh. I thought I was blacklisted from taking parts in any ecas! Now my mind-set is going to get wild again! Thanks to this over-thinking gene I get from someone! Stupid pensive moods. Anyway should I take part? I really don't want to. Seeing as suamp has this craze for good reputations. Yeah every sch has it but this sch is serious. Well that's the way I see it anyway. So let's get to the pros and cons of participating. 

Pros: 
Nothing really. Just maybe because I hate withdrawing. 

Cons:
-It has three stages in which I hate all. The first is written and suck at that. Cos I just cannot seem to take written quizzes seriously. The second is like, I don't know. But it'll be aired on RTB. I hate public attention, not that I think I'll pass stage one cos I can't even beat Mahad last time, let alone MS! Okay now I remember that goddamn awful day! I don't have any excuses for our loss, just that we didn't take it seriously. We're not serious people okay? 

-I know I will lose. But if I do win - which I'm sure is only possible if it snows in Bru - I have to compete against nine other countries with two strangers as my teammates! In Vietnam! Ratio of the things I don't mind to things I do, is like, 1:2 here. I don't mind competing because I like competitions. But I hate strangers. And I hate travelling. 

-If I lose, the disappointment and embarrassment would be too much for me to handle. 

-It starts at the end of Nov which is supposed to be my break and I refuse to get my brain all worked up again after struggling with four major exams this year! 

I think the result is obvious here. But heck I love competitions. And I'm not sure how to tell my teacher I don't want to take part. Well that can be solved by asking my mom to call her. Then again, she would say something embarrassing to her seeming as she had already made clear to us that it was her life's second motto nowadays. So I would have to tell her myself which will often result in me chickening out and just go through it and will later regret it when I lose. 

Don't get me wrong. I do not mind losing. But this is like, an international quiz! I never go that far! I'm not crazy! Okay maybe I am, a little but ugh. What am I rambling about. 

I need a sign! Anything! 

Feeble.

I am so bored today.

I know I'm supposed to be doing revisions for Geo tomorrow but...I don't know. Well I was. Until I finally gave in to the temptation of switching on my laptop. So pathetic. But I'll get back to Geo tho...eventually. I hope. 

Alright. Since there aren't much to do since facebook is like, old now and twitter is, not fun anymore, I resorted to reading my old posts. Gosh could I get even more pathetic than that. 

Anyway back to my posts. I've never actually read them. I just usually click post and now I regretted not considering to cancel them. But too late to change that now. Like I care. 
It was like they were written by..not me. Okay okay, that's a lie. But seriously I don't even remember who I was talking about in those posts. I attempted to delete them, but meh. Let it be a reminder of my even more pathetic old self.

Looks like I can be even more pathetic.


And can we learn how to control our tears? Course we can but some things are not so easy to resist. Like, is crying even worth it? How is it that people manage to do things they despise and when they actually want to do it, they can't? The world is so weird. 

Giving forgiveness is supposedly easy when it comes to someone you love, right? But they say that when someone they care about hurts them, it's even more painful when it's from someone you don't care. Yes it's true, because why do you care if someone you hate hurts you anyway. But if you truly love someone, wouldn't you be willing to sacrifice everything for them? Let alone forgiveness. 

And yes, I did not come up with that myself. I had help. From a little thing called experience.

And that, is the closing of this lousy...whatever this is.  

The sextet

Okay I somehow got out from being a Queen's early this year. But somehow I watched their latest MVs and..they're back! Well, maybe. "Because I know" is actually pretty good. If it's compared to their previous songs - sexy love and watnot - that is. 

And well done CCM, Boram and Qri finally got more lines. I'm actually happy for them. And Qri's a leader nooow. Congrats to her.  

I still don't get what the articles are saying about Dani cos mostly they're about things Idc but what I do wanna know a little, okay very little is that is she gonna be the 7th member? Pls say no.  

Anyway enough about them. 

And enough for this post also. 

Hydrogen Peroxide with KI

Okay. Today's exam iiiiis Chemistry 3! Will depart to school at like, ten or smth. If I come early, no one would be there anyway. And I'd be like, alone. 

I just wanna ask, how do we differentiate Lead with Aluminium anyway? Like, the results of the reactions between the two cations with both reagents (NaOH and aq ammonia) are the same! But yeah. Guess lead won't be it since it never came out. Is it even included in the syllabus. Oh god what if it does come out?! Please don't come out lead! Just stay in your cozy habitat and sleep til the end of the day. Alright then. Wish me luck! 

If redox reaction does come out, it'd be cool to try the above experiment, don't you think? 

Lachowski!

So Wattpad's got me hooked up again. That up there is from this story that's yet to be finished so I haven't started reading it. But Francisco was chosen to cast as the main character of the book and he is just too darn cute. Sometimes. 

Check it out. The blurb doesn't seem too bad, I guess. Altho, the prologue might be a little..erotic. 

Kidnapped To Be Married

Unfortunate

So we went to The Mall today. The occasion was and still is unknown. Just for fun, maybe. 

Okay maybe not. My mom wanted to go to this electronic store to..I'm not sure why. And there were so many typical displays of iProducts. It was REALLY awkward becos I had to stand in the middle of the store waiting for my mum to finish whatever she was doing. So I wandered around. 

My bro told my mum to get him an iPad if he were to be the top student. And we were like, at your age?! Okay he wasn't THAT young but I got my first device when I was eleven! And he was only..not eleven yet! He even threatened to flunk the exams if my mum didn't agree. Okay that's a lie but something along those lines really happened. 

And my sister, who by the way kindly told my mum how I was spoiled. I was not spoiled thank you very much! I had to PERSUADE them, okay? Seriously that girl and her 'the family's unfairness' speeches. She even wanted to have a Macbook pro or whatever for her gift. Like omg really? NOT COMPATIBLE. But meh, her choices. 

Kids these days.

Anyway I just...my laptop is just not the same anymore. It's really, really slow! And I'm known for my impatience! Not to mention the shortcut keys don't work anymore! And the webcam got uninstalled and that worker forgot to install it back! The screensaver doesn't work either no matter how many times I tried to change the settings. And my games are gone. So sad. I got it back from my dad's disk but the all the data are corrupted. OH WELL. 

And oh the touch pad still doesn't work. -.- Nothing serious tho. 

Alright that's all the complaints I got for today :) Bye. 

Gained and lost

I finally got my laptop fixed and returned to me today. My hard disk was corrupted so they had to replace it. Hence I lost all my data. Well technically I didn't because my dad had it copied on his disk but he lost the usb so I don't have any access to it either way. 

I didn't really mind tho. WHAT I DO MIND IS THAT I CANNOT ACCESS MY PHONE!

Ahhh, it's like when I got a new ok not really new phone my laptop wouldn't start. And now that it's repaired, it's my fricking phone's turn to sulk. Srsly guys I'll pay equal attention to both of you. Okay maybe not but you really don't have to pout. 

I don't really mind having a broken phone. Okay it's not broken. I just can't unlock it. Wanna know why? Oh I'll tell you why anyway. 

I got tired of using letters as my phone security lock so I decided to use pattern. I forgot that if we tried too many patterns it would eventually ask for our Google Acc. So I let my sister guess what the password was. As you can guess, it reached the limit for tries. I was at my granny's house which didn't have any wi-fi and I haven't topped up my account but I tried anyway. It kept saying the account was invalid so I quit trying until I got home. And when I got home, I forgot I switched off the wi-fi to save battery so I don't have any internet access! But still, I tried. It still won't work! So I used my laptop to get my e-mail fixed but the screen still said it was invalid! Srsly what is wrong with it! And I tried rebooting it but it just won't work! So I'm mad at my sister right now. And my phone is currently lying somewhere in my nasty room. 

Any other day I would just laugh at myself and thank god for not allowing me to access it becos it is a serious distraction but now I REALLY need to talk to my best friend! So yeah. I'm pretty angry about it. 

I don't care much tho, because I finally have my baby back! As in, my laptop.

So yeah, cheerios! 

Dear markers,

My recent exam was Physics Practical. I really, really screw up. I'm gonna flunk that paper! Na'udzubillah... I need to score in Physics! Please Cambridge markers! Be kind. Okay whatever I know there's no hope anymore. 

Howdy

Okay it has been four months since I last updated. Obviously I was busy. 

My life had been attending a non-stop exam festivals. It was fun. Note the sweet, sweet sarcasm.

My June result was unexpected. But really I keep asking myself what is the point of taking June? People say it's for preparing ourselves for Nov but srsly? I don't think it works. Like, both the Malay orals in June and Qualifying had different format than in Nov. AND IT WAS UNEXPECTED LIKE WTH. Ofc I didn't do so well. I panicked ok. I had the reading oral first and I didn't do well either becos I was SO distracted. Like really distracted. So my hopes were crushed becos I knew I couldn't count on the other papers. But I thought coolly answering the questions for the second part of the oral would help. And suddenly the teacher just told me to talk about the fricking economy for a full 5 minutes. Meh I kept repeating my points and did some pretty exaggerated hand gestures. It must be really hard for the examiner not to laugh. What did I tell you? June and Qualifyings did not prepare us for what was coming in Nov. And even worse, this friend of mine - who would very much likely be one of the top students to receive LOTS OF AWARDS - had to gush on how easy her session went. Okay not exactly gushed but meh. Oh well, who am I to complain. I took it for granted. 

But before that, SPUB ORALS! Maigod my Arabic oral sucked. And the worse part is, right after I stepped out of my oral session, I had thousands of sentences to share. Too bad. My Quran didn't go so well either. Gosh I practiced for like...a week for that. And that's a record. For the longest period of revision. Ha ha. 

AND THE WRITTEN EXAMS WERE EVEN WORSE! I can't remember having to exit the hall feeling ecstatic. Only worry, irate and the urge to cry. Well I did cry. Oh Allah please let my results be excellent! 

And now I'm in the middle of the Olevel exams. Yet here I am blogging. It's unbelievable how un-seriously I'm taking this exam! It's scary me tbh! I hate it. It's weird. Like I've spent most of my time playing Typer shark. Stupid game, and now I'm blogging. And I'm pretty sure I'll be signing in Wattpad after this. Really how is this even possible! This isn't me! This really isn't me! 

I need help. Pronto.