Our friendship bond will never die, 8 Al-qaranful

I am warning you. This will bore you to death. Or make you puke. Cause it's too...touching or not touching at all. But if you were in 8 Al-Qaranful 2011, I hope you'll read this. But either way, it'll still make you puke if you dislike/hate me.

Soooo...

I am frustrated. 

I want my sanity back.

I want my sound mind back.

I want my life in 2011 back.

Never in my life I had missed a year before.

2011 gave me a great impact.

Guess what they said was true.

You never know what you have til you've lost it.

It's painful.

I cannot tell how hurt I am right now.

It's not that I want to go back over again.

It's tiring.

I just wish that we'll never be apart.

Year 8 Al-Qaranful students, your most selfish classmate misses you all.

Yes my 8 Qaranful friends, you girls are awesome. 

I can't deny that I'm hurt when I see you all moving on with your new found friends.

Before we know it, we won't even say hi to each other.

It'll be like wind passing by.

Though, I really hope it won't happen.

Remember this:

If I didn't reply you, it means I didn't hear you.

I will never ignore you girls.

I also feel like crying. 

Not because I'm disappointed in you girls, but cause I miss you.

See how much I said I miss you girls?

That is because I mean it.

Really mean it.

Our most sensitive topic.

Heights.

I'm not sure if I am supposed to laugh or cry.

Should I do both?

Cause I just did that.

I never passed through a day without laughing.

You girls all have one thing in common.

That is, you never fail in making me smile.

Always...

Another talent.

Pleading with the teachers to postpone our due day or tests.

Especially our Splendid Class Monitor.

'Muka sepuluh sen'.

Speaking of teachers, I cannot describe how wonderful they are.

I wish for some of them to teach us. Especially my Mathematics and Arabic teachers.

Though there had been some difficulties in respecting but four words.

I still love you.

Yes I love all my teachers even from the year before.

But last year, I was very lucky to have a line up of incredible teachers.

Teachers, you are all awesome. 

You did it.

You made me think you as my lover.

Cause I can't be away with you.

Who's you?

You, 8 Al-Qaranful 2011.

I can't hold it anymore.

I am bawling like there's no tomorrow.

I REALLY MISS 2011 VERY VERY VERY MUCH.

I only want you to do one favor.

Help me get over 2011 and move on to 2012.

Okay, you got me.

I was just kidding.

I never want to get over the best year so far.

My real favor is...

Please do not forget me.

Please do not let our friendship break.

Please always be close as last year. 

I am being expressionless. Don't get me wrong.

I typed this with full sincere.

I just...

I'm not sure how to express it.

Final Words.

My girls, I miss you all.

I will never get tired of saying it,

even if I have to do it for a thousand times or more.

And, 

I LOVE YOU GIRLS MORE THAN I LOVE 

MYSELF LAPTOP. 

*hugs* 

Until we meet again, GOOD BYE :"> 

*waves*

You lied.

Sigh.

I am an idiot. 

I blame you for that.

You changed me into an idiot.

I regretted everything we did together.

Including what made me laugh and  happy.

Cause no matter how hard I try, I just can't think of you as a good person.

It's not that I hate you.

It's not that I dislike you.

It's not that I don't want to friend you.

I just want you to stop hurting me.

I just want you to stop telling lies. 

I just want you to be honest. 

Unfortunately you can't.

To be exact, I can't bring myself to tell you these.

I hate being seen as a Drama Queen.

Cause I, myself hate overly dramatic people.

But I can't help myself.

I can't keep the pain in my heart forever.

I need to let it out.

But every time I try, it always ended up being messed up.

I care for you, I know I do.

But that was when you cared for me.

I don't know what to feel anymore.

Topics about best friends are sensitive. 

Everyday I came back from school with a feeling of hurt.

You lied.

You lied.

You lied...

That is the only thing that I think of whenever I see you.

I will feel like crying. 

I will feel like screaming.

I will feel like punching your face.

But I can't.

I have pride.

Pride that had been hurt a lot of times.

We're drifting apart.

Didn't take you a long time to replace me huh?

To find a new best friend.

Just so you know, I AM REALLY HURT.

I don't expect you to understand.

You never understood me.

I don't even know why you are still my friend.

To me, you don't have a heart.

There, I said it. It's mean, but I just can't help it. 

From now on, I hope you will stay as far as you can from me. 

I hope you will not go anywhere near me.

I know it'll hurt, but it hurts more when I know you lied.

Lies. Sigh. 

Best friends

I wonder if the words you said in the past still remains the same. I wonder if you had replaced me with someone else. 

True, we separated classes. But I thought we could still be close. Cause distance doesn't matter in friendship. But you. You made me cry.


You said we were suppose to be best friends forever. You told me that you chose me over anyone else in friendship. Of course, you still chose your ex classmates over me. But that, just made it worse.

But why can't you do that to me? Why can't we still be best friends? You treat me like I'm a stranger. You treat me like you don't know me. You treat me like you have forgotten our friendship promise. 

I understand that the bond between the newcomer is great now that you both have the same thing in common. That is, 'Boyfriend'. 

Still, how could you forget our promise? How could you break our promise? How could you not keep our promise? How could you break your own best friend's heart?

It hurts, seeing you doing well without me as your best friend. I know you are getting tired of me. I just want you to know that I never and will never get tired of you. 

You know why?

Cause I love you. As my best friend. You are the best friend everyone wishes to have :') I was lucky to have you as one...


Now, I lost you. Thanks to the newcomer. Who is now on my hate list though I used to call her one of my best friend. Things change huh? 
Unfortunately for me, good people can change to be the opposite of it too </3 

Sometimes I think that it hurts more if your best friend hurt you than your lover. Best friends are suppose to be there for each other.