Filler post.

Heyya guys. How are you doing? Well I hope you're handling life alot better than me. I mean, handling life maturely is just not my thing you know? And for those who are having a hard time surviving, just remember you're not alone. 

So I've managed to survive school. That wasn't really unbelievable since Oct/Nov aren't here yet. Is it wrong of me to wish for them not to come? 

Honestly, I'm so tired and sick of being upset all the time. 
Can anyone please cheer me up in whatever ways possible? Crazy and ridiculous tactics included. I mean, even though I just wanna be cheerful and bubbly all the time, somehow I just can't. No matter how much I try, most of them were just...fake. 

The worst thing is, I don't know the reason. Well maybe I do but I just don't wanna say it out loud. Becos reality hurts. And saying it aloud just makes it more real. AND DID I MENTION I HATE REALITY?!

Ok that was a bit mental. Perhaps very mental. But whatever. Too tired to care. Constant pressure does that to you, I guess. 

I can feel myself changing. I just hate changes, although it's bound to happen every once in awhile. Never failed to catch me off-guard tho. Everytime. 

Okay my life is srsly unorganized. Gosh I need a break. Pronto. 

*APPARATES TO A WHOLE NEW WORLD* 

Regrets

Waiting has never been pleasant.

All those overwhelming feelings you experience, you can never be immune.

The worries they might not come. The anxiety due to the thoughts that they might come.

The hollow feeling in your chest that only them can seemingly fill.

I had never and will never like the feeling. 

I've waited patiently for you to see. But no. You chose negligence. Over all those other possibilities. 
I may seem fine about it, but really, everything just seem so dark and sad. 
Pure happiness is never really there. 
I just want all our times together to be replayed. 
But all I can do is want. Nothing else could be done. 

If only we chose other alternatives from the start.