You lied.

Jan

26

2012

Sigh.

I am an idiot. 

I blame you for that.

You changed me into an idiot.

I regretted everything we did together.

Including what made me laugh and  happy.

Cause no matter how hard I try, I just can't think of you as a good person.

It's not that I hate you.

It's not that I dislike you.

It's not that I don't want to friend you.

I just want you to stop hurting me.

I just want you to stop telling lies. 

I just want you to be honest. 

Unfortunately you can't.

To be exact, I can't bring myself to tell you these.

I hate being seen as a Drama Queen.

Cause I, myself hate overly dramatic people.

But I can't help myself.

I can't keep the pain in my heart forever.

I need to let it out.

But every time I try, it always ended up being messed up.

I care for you, I know I do.

But that was when you cared for me.

I don't know what to feel anymore.

Topics about best friends are sensitive. 

Everyday I came back from school with a feeling of hurt.

You lied.

You lied.

You lied...

That is the only thing that I think of whenever I see you.

I will feel like crying. 

I will feel like screaming.

I will feel like punching your face.

But I can't.

I have pride.

Pride that had been hurt a lot of times.

We're drifting apart.

Didn't take you a long time to replace me huh?

To find a new best friend.

Just so you know, I AM REALLY HURT.

I don't expect you to understand.

You never understood me.

I don't even know why you are still my friend.

To me, you don't have a heart.

There, I said it. It's mean, but I just can't help it. 

From now on, I hope you will stay as far as you can from me. 

I hope you will not go anywhere near me.

I know it'll hurt, but it hurts more when I know you lied.

Lies. Sigh.